Psychologist says 4

This is 100 % true. I will add that the intent to cause FEAR is at the back of it all. Following it neglect and invalidation. If one does try to correct another there has to be support. Not clamping down of voice. It therefore indicates POWER PLAY. 

Psychologist says 3

My life, my journey, my pace. No rush. No right and wrong. Just deal with situation. Live in tiny moments. Happiness is finding YOUR way through it.

Psychologist says 2

Thankfully I don’t freeze. However I slow down. I notice this because I am a natural quick decision maker. I do struggle with sleeping in doing nothing until boredom when there is no decision to be made. Don’t know if there is a connection but I don’t like to do anything like cooking cleaning chores when I am overwhelmed by trauma and I think that is a normal response. So I take it slow. Anyways I don’t have anywhere to go or don’t have deadlines to finish. 

Psychologist says 1

A new series to help understand trauma and responses. 

After a life of challenges which I absorbed when younger, my capacity to handle triggers is reduced. 

No one can help. Not family not friends. What friends can do is just be there without trying to take control, without judgement. Listen if you can. Else just hold hands. 

Professional guidance helps. Fortunately I have been able to help myself and it takes time. My sole aim in to protect myself from triggers. Have to find a solution to deflect any such situation with minimum suffering.

It takes TWO to Tango

The world has a way of denying lived experiences.

I myself am old now. A storage of beautiful memories. The not so beautiful thoughts are conveniently forgotten. Human nature does not like to dwell on HURT.

After 13 years why did destiny want me to reconnect? I am directionless and clueless. 

How do you know it is me?! You were so sure it was me. Why are emotions high 🖤?  Why did you fill me up on your life? Like you wanted me to be witness to it? Why you cannot handle my emotions? Yes it is Overwhelming. It’s been so long…

Right now there is silence. No activity since May 2024. 

It takes TWO to TANGO. Let life unfold. No one knows their EXPIRY DATE. Until then there is TIME. 

Not for nothing it is said there is no place for an outsider to speculate. 

It is the lived experience that is the ONLY TRUTH.