Imprints वासना

Ruins of the past 

वासना Or Imprints of the past experiences. There are many kinds. Of food, sex, home, money etc. Yet the वासना of money is the worst kind.

It is so hard to let go. Therefore money carries those imprints. In Gondavale there are lot of rich people who offer donations but it is the only religious place I know of that refuses the donations from known corrupt people and criminals. They prefer the small contributions of a simple common man. Shree Gondavalekar Maharaj abused money as पैका ! He never touched anyone’s money offering. It is known the वासना is the reason for rebirth. 

I know the history in the Cooper family. In every generation some वासना of the ancestors has been unfulfilled. The walls are wailing with sorrow. Every generation has paid a price of a certain incident three generations from mine. 

The house was in shambles when I got married. It reflected the history of the family. I chose my husband inspite of the challenges I saw in my face. I was confident that I can change the energy of the house. This house has seen so much pain and suffering. It has sapped my energy. Now it will take a toll on the new. Inherit it and bear the burden of the unsatisfied souls. 

Plus there are distressed souls that have वासना as in greed on this house that are causing conflict.

There will never be peace in this house nor in the inheritance. 

Circumstances

Circumstances never remain same. I can’t see the shore yet but I am moving towards it. The journey is important.

Binoculars give a better view though limited. Since I was on the RORO I knew that I had the means to reach the shore. The co-passengers may or may not be useful. However there is a 50% chance. Take a bet. 

Doesn’t matter if you know swimming or not. What is the chance that the vessel will sink ? There are life jackets and bouys. You can use them in crisis. 

You took a risk and reached the other side. The beautiful side. What if you had never boarded that ship ? 

When you are given options and resources make a choice to use them for circumstances never remain the same. 

Styling the Wardrobe

These are the last two sets of clothes I bought in Aug 2025. 

Counting my blessings as I look back. I have always been loved by my parents especially after Aai’s passing away in 1994 Baba has not just loved me but also supported me. Whether it was being by my side when I lived in Bangalore for work or even the smallest thing. 

I have inherited a spending gene from my Dad my Baba. He was an administrator with the Maharashtra Government and dressed to rule. Until his retirement he owned 300 shirts and I am not counting his pants, sadaras and other ethnic wear. He had a lovely collection of shoes from forest shoes to camel leather ones. He would buy me 10 sets of clothes every June and different types of shoes, keds, formals, sandals, rainy shoes and a Kolhapuri pair was a must. That would set me up for college. 

While I was working I would buy clothes every month. I had so many clothes that when I got married my Dad built a wardrobe for me in my marital home so I could house my clothes well. The joke is inspite of the n number of cupboards in the sasural I had no space for my clothes. My husband was so kiddish he too demanded space in the wardrobe. Ha ha 🤣 

This is the one ! Left is my side and Right is Arvi’s but now mine.

Then Baba overhauled Arvi’s wardrobe 180 degrees. From a typical Parsi Bawa style he changed it to trendy style. 

Something I wrote in 2019…

Arvi was a very simple person except food indulgences he wasn't really into luxury. Having a father who dresses immaculately even today made me a connoisseur of men's clothing. 

When Dad worked three jobs he changed clothes thrice. T-shirts and pants/ shorts for his yoga classes and formal well tailored shirts from Shankar Master tailors a favorite of Tatas and the Birlas back in the 70s to 90s. In fact the owner Mohan Amin became one of my Dad's favorite friends in the later years. It was Yash Birla who had adviced Mohan kaka to trim down and wear what he stitches so his clients would see his skill. So Mohan Kaka had joined my Dad's class at Kaivalyadham at Chowpatty. Then on Mohan Kaka used to buy materials imported from Hong Kong for my Dad stitch his clothes and directly deliver to our home in Fort. My Dad was his model wearing the clothes to his elite student's homes and most times they ended up referring clients for each other.

So when I met Arvi my father did judge his fashion sense rather the lack of it. However he also started helping Arvi change his style as much as I did. In Sep 2017 Dad gifted Arvi a couple of shirts and jeans. Arvi had been wearing his old jeans for very long so he loved his new one but it did not fit him well so we went to change it. I coaxed him into buying more jeans and cotton trousers in various colors and loads of new shirts. I had already changed his style a bit during our wedding shopping but this birthday was special. 

I remember one day we were going out and were all dressed for a formal evening and Arvi did a bit of fashion walk in front of our neighbor that made her comment, "Aaj kale bou stylish thay gayo tu!"

This recollection makes me smile but that is not the only thing I want to share today. 

Since Aug 2025 I haven’t bought a single piece of clothing! 

Practising conscious consumerism. 

Ask These Questions To Yourself

It takes a whole lifetime to realise the evil influences in a person’s life.

Ask these questions ? 

1. Does a child deserve the separation from the mother. Whose decision was it? 

2. The child is used as tool for greed. Did the child choose the suffering that follows?

3. All the bad karma build up. Who will carry the burden? You or your influencers ? 

4. By 30 yrs you have already gone through 2 legal battles. 

5. Your child was exposed to legal battle in the womb itself. Is this the gift you wanted for the foetus ? The baby is growing listening to the legal battle. This is the Sanskar you got and now you are giving to the child. 

6. The curses 🤬 you and your husband and child get every moment. How long can you absorb them ? 

Yet you think your influencers are your well wishers ?

You are at the Gates of Hell ! 

KALNIRNAY मागचं पान

On the 15 Jan 2026 I shot for a fun episode about eating fish as per season with the young Turk Shakti Salgaokar Yezdani from the कालनिर्णय family for her new podcast @kalnirnay_magchpan Now subscribe to the YouTube channel so you don’t miss it ! 

I have decided to count every small blessing that comes my way. The year 2026 has begun on a positive note. 

This was a much required opportunity to break the chain of events since October 2025 which has brought me learnings. Early warning ⚠️ systems are always appreciated. Atleast we get info and then stay monitored. The first change in my life as the कालचक्र turns. This was the first day after Sankrant and the beginning of उत्तरायण. It is the year of the SuryaDev with the promise of brightness and shine. 

So grateful.

श्री राम 🙏🏽🌹

KaalChakra

KaalChakra कालचक्र 

The only TRUTH is CHANGE. 

When everything is destroyed. It creates a FERTILE environment for a NEW BEGINNING, A FRESH START. 

All I am doing is witnessing my LIFE. 

I don’t need to DO anything.

The stage is set for a MIRACLE. 

श्री राम 🙏🏽🌹

LIBERATED

Today is an amazing day ! After a deliberated break of Nine months. Note the coincidences ! 

I am feeling LIBERATED.

त्वमेव केवलं कर्तासि । 

त्वमेव केवलं धर्तासि । 

त्वमेव केवलं हर्तासि ॥

You alone are the creator, you alone are the sustainer, and you alone are the destroyer. 

I have made a choice not to have children. To end this journey at myself. Glad that I am not passing on Bad Karma to my next generation. The COOPER family ends with me.

I HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO CARRY BURDENS OF THE PAST. TO ENJOY THE REMAINDER LIFE. TRY NOT TO COMPLAIN. 

॥ सर्वं सत्ये प्रतिष्ठितम् ॥

Everything is established in truth. 

एकटा जीव सदाशिव.

श्री राम 🙏🏽🌹